i met this girl around a year ago, we became really good friends and just hit it off right from the begging. we began to hangout more and more, and eventualy things started to get very physical, we would always be making out and things like that. after a month of fooling around we desided that we shoud just go out. she told one of her friends that she was going to leave me for another guy that lliked her, but after i asked her about her about it i suppose she changed her mind and she stayed with me.
everything seemed to be going fine, we would still fight from time to time but things were ok. we were very sexual in the begging of the relationship, but i guess nothing more than usal teens.
we got to the point were we liked eachother very much, and would say that we were truly in love. we were hanging out pretty much every single day and both just kind of forgot about our friends.
there was a time that i left the state to go visit my grandparents, we fought so much that she almost had left me for the same guy i prevously mentioned because he asked her out, i would always see messages between them on myspace or her phone were they would just talk about hanging out and things like that.
once i retured from this trip things got alot better and we were trully beter, and even more in love then before. things went smoothly for a while and then things started to change, the sex became less and less frequent.
we both started fighting more and more about stupid things, or just about things that really didnt matter. i became very depressed during this time to the point were i was actualy suisidle. we both became very sad, because of all of the fighting but some things like tthe good days we had together kept us together.
this dragged on for a while untill one day we broke up because of a big fight (Witch we had done many times before, but got back together earler on.) the,n we talked and insted of just going out and being a couple again she said she just wanted to date this, went on for a couple weeks untill we just ended it for good.
this was emontionly devistating on both of us, because for the both it was out first real ';love';, i had to leave the state because i was servearly depressed and couldnt handle it. everyone around me said that the relationship was bad for me and were gllad it was over.
affter a while 2 months me and her started to talk again after i returned an item of her clothing to her, we told eachother our feelings, that we were both glad it was over, that it was really dragged on to long but that we missed eachother alot.
we agreed that we should hangout sometime soon. so the other day we hung out. we just got somthing to eat and sat down and talked. we just sat there for like 5 hours and talked, during that time we kind of playfully touched and hugged, it ended up with us both crying about what had happend and hugging and saying we really missed hanging out.
the next day she called me and asked if i wanted to go to the mall with her, we hungout and things got a little bit sexual, just really playfull flirting.. it got to the point were i was about an inch away from her face she said you realllyy wana kiss me huh? i went in for a kiss and she totaly moved back and denyed me, we both laughed about it, and she preceded to telll me that we could have sex and kiss just later on like in a couple months.
we both smiled and agreed. i guess my questions are, what do i do? how can ikeep hmyself for geting hurt again. how do i know if she isnt just messing around with me to get a laugh or just tease me. she said she really llikes teasing me and that its funny but we both dont seem to mind. so.. really what should i do? what are you opinions?What do i do with this girl?
Sex is NOT love. Love is sticking together when times are rough, working things out together, and encouraging/helping one another. Love is patient, love is kind, love does not boast...just to name a few things that love actually IS... Love is NOT a feeling...I really think society just doesn't know what love is anymore.What do i do with this girl?
wel if u cnt fix it then u should leave well alone :)
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